The Church Directory and Pork'N'Beans
It's been a pretty good week around here. Grief is funny. At times you feel almost "guilty" about being happy or doing "ok". I'm learning from reading the Bible that you can mourn AND be happy at the same time. It's quit an odd feeling.
One thing that has really triggered me this week is The Church Directory. Our church is in the middle of updating our directory and so they asked all of us to look at our picture and information and make any updates that are needed......gulp.....here is our picture from last year....
Do you see what I see???? Yep, no Josiah. My heart sank when I realized we could not add him or have a family picture with him in our church directory.
This made me feel like he never existed. It doesn't make sense to list someone who is no longer here. I get that. It just hurts...I wish he was in at least one directory. It's like we just skipped that part of our families history. But wait....I have an idea!!!! Stay tuned!
After thinking about this picture a little longer I realized Josiah was in this picture...inside of me! I was 7 months pregnant here, so that makes me feel a little bit better....just a little bit.
Adeline talks about her brother more and more. This makes me extremely happy. She will randomly tell me Josiah is "coming home tomorrow". Although I wish I could tell her that is true I tell her he is in Heaven with Jesus and we will see him one day.
The other day while eating some franks & beans I told Adeline to eat one more spoonful of her pork'n'beans. She very seriously told me, "Josiah eats pork'n'beans". Marcel and I got a good laugh out of that and we went on to talk about how we knew Josiah would LOVE pork'n'beans and everything else he could eat! He was a porker alright!
During our last GriefShare session I shared with the group that one of the beautiful things that comes out of the death of someone we love is our TOTAL RELIANCE ON GOD. I am learning more and more everyday that God, my relationship with Him, and His glory are all that matter. Life is so extremely short, we are just here for a tiny part of our existence and while I'm here I want to bring all glory to Him. He has given me so much to be thankful for.
So here I sit....happy....yet sad....ok....yet grieving....and that's just fine.
Sincerely,
Josiah's Momma
One thing that has really triggered me this week is The Church Directory. Our church is in the middle of updating our directory and so they asked all of us to look at our picture and information and make any updates that are needed......gulp.....here is our picture from last year....
Do you see what I see???? Yep, no Josiah. My heart sank when I realized we could not add him or have a family picture with him in our church directory.
This made me feel like he never existed. It doesn't make sense to list someone who is no longer here. I get that. It just hurts...I wish he was in at least one directory. It's like we just skipped that part of our families history. But wait....I have an idea!!!! Stay tuned!
After thinking about this picture a little longer I realized Josiah was in this picture...inside of me! I was 7 months pregnant here, so that makes me feel a little bit better....just a little bit.
Adeline talks about her brother more and more. This makes me extremely happy. She will randomly tell me Josiah is "coming home tomorrow". Although I wish I could tell her that is true I tell her he is in Heaven with Jesus and we will see him one day.
The other day while eating some franks & beans I told Adeline to eat one more spoonful of her pork'n'beans. She very seriously told me, "Josiah eats pork'n'beans". Marcel and I got a good laugh out of that and we went on to talk about how we knew Josiah would LOVE pork'n'beans and everything else he could eat! He was a porker alright!
During our last GriefShare session I shared with the group that one of the beautiful things that comes out of the death of someone we love is our TOTAL RELIANCE ON GOD. I am learning more and more everyday that God, my relationship with Him, and His glory are all that matter. Life is so extremely short, we are just here for a tiny part of our existence and while I'm here I want to bring all glory to Him. He has given me so much to be thankful for.
So here I sit....happy....yet sad....ok....yet grieving....and that's just fine.
Sincerely,
Josiah's Momma
Is there room at the beginning of your bible, for family events?
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Podcasts, used church mics, into a pro audio external sound card. can have a RSS feed XML db.
Popular Spreadsheet have added vcard, contactless 2D barcode generator functions. Export db to spreadsheet.