The Director's Wife

Letting go of Josiah is something I really don't think about.  About a year ago I struggled with a tremendous amount of guilt.  I felt guilty about the amount of time I spent in the ER with him after he died. I still have the time table in my head.... 5:29pm I got home from work 19 minutes go by 5:48pm Marcel calls 911 5 minutes go by 5:53pm first responder arrives, we are transported to the ER 22 minutes go by 6:45pm Josiah is pronounced dead in the ER 11 minutes go by 6:56pm Marcel takes the first picture of me holding Josiah in the ER 1 hour and 4 minutes go by 8:30pm I look at the clock in our ER room and told Marcel...."Let's leave at 9:00pm." 45 minutes go by 9:15pm we tell the nurses we are ready to go, we kiss Josiah good bye for the last time 5 minutes go by 3 hours and 30 minutes from when we found Josiah we left his body at the hospital 9:20pm we meet the Medical Examiner on our way out...we walk back in with her to tell our story 55 minutes go by 10:15pm w...

  As I scroll through social media it becomes blatantly clear that children matter more than our spouses.  It makes me ask the question, since when do children matter more than our husbands or our wives?   Children are temporary.  I think I first heard this at our church and well when you think about it, it is true.  Our children are only temporary...they will grow, become adults, and leave our households to live their own lives.  Our marriages are permanent, or at least they should be. So if marriage is permanent when and why do our kids seem to overtake our marriages? As you scroll through your social media feeds do you notice an enormous amount of women (mostly) posting Valentine\"s Day posts showing off their kiddos?  Now I\"m not opposed to posting about your kids, hey I post a lot of pictures of my kids but when the majority of your "life" is just your kids, if your profile pictures is you and your kids, not your spouse, when someone has to ...

  Welcome back to my blog!  I am super excited to finally be typing again.  I often go through my day or week and think....oh I need to write about that but then I never do but today is different, today I am starting a new habit of writing every week and hopefully with a little discipline you will have a blog post every week from me!   D o you think I can do it?  Do you think I can post 52 posts this year?  The challenge is on!  As I type I feel so much better already!  Writing has always been one of my favorite ways to express myself.  So here we go! As you can see I have a new blog address...I'm so excited!  Please remember to come back to read my posts every week at 💚     thedirectorswife.net     💚 So simple and cute! I have so many ideas of what I will be sharing and here are just a few.  If you would like me to write about a specific topic please leave me a message in the comments and I...